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Correlation or causation? [21 Dec 2008|05:21am] [ mood | As a skunk ladies & gentlemen! ] My social life is directly proportional to my alcohol intake.  Simple correlation or causation? Arguments! Make a note of it.

Google is creepy. [04 Dec 2008|12:42am] NEW HOPE • David Scott Howell, 23, Washington Crossing, approved for ARD program for 1 year on charges of use/possession of drug paraphernalia, related summary offenses May 20. http://www.phillyburbs.com/pb-dyn/news/113-12012008-1630293.html I am in LOVE with the most GREATEST GUY in the WHOLE WORLD and his name is DAVID SCOTT HOWELL http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=65185860 I do not remember this shit. 1 // Make a note of it.

Eww [29 Aug 2008|06:04am] I just smoked a cigarette the filter had broken off of and I actually tasted some of the chemicals in it. It was disgusting. I'm definetly quitting now. Damn nicotine, so alluring. Where did I put that gum? Make a note of it.

how to destroy your social life 1001 [20 Jul 2008|07:26pm] leave phone somewhere. Like laura's or eric's. I suck. 4 // Make a note of it.

[08 Jun 2008|04:07am] My Shameful secret. I sometimes, late at night, in the blue glow of my computer screen indulge in my most debased of desires. I Go onto youtube and Fuck with peoples' heads. I. Love. The commentary section. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dKVsI43xF9k 2 // Make a note of it.

Decisions decisions [01 Apr 2008|07:27am] [ music | Brushing up on these bands. ] Alright, I have a few options and I'd like some input. For April 20th, my designated holiday from any responsibility, I have a few shows to choose from. Nothing is happening at Dekcuf, which is weird, so not that. Babylon has a good Hardcore band Called Protest The Hero, who I've been  following very loosely over the past few years but am not really a fan of. Thats $20 advance Theres a pretty Damn good Dance Band Called Woodhands thats playing at Zaphod's, but I'm not sure how long their set will be. Thats $6 at the door. Barrymores has 80's night, for a second I thought it was 90's but I was looking at the wrong month, and thats no cover but I'm not a big fan of the 80s. There are probably other Shows playing but I can't find them. I think I may have already decided by writing this out, still input is appreciated. 2 // Make a note of it.

Neopost! [15 Feb 2008|03:45am] Wow I haven't posted in a while, its almost like I have a life. Okay, Update. Existential Crisis. Check Recent Freakout. Check Feeling better but still confused. Check Single as of New years. Douchebag check.  Employed at wine store. Hobo Check Written an entire little notebook of free form poems in one night. Check Feeling good about it. Semi check. Not seeing most of my friends anywhere near often enough and feeling like an asshole for doing it, especially in regard to ditching friends to return to class I ditched. Check Broke. Uber Check. Typing going to shit. Spell check Trying to figure out who I am again onlt seemingly harder especially considering it was shitty enough the first time. Post getting a bit long for checklist check. I'll see you all in the coming week of reading. Parties to be had, drinks to be drunk., drunks to be tossed,  Hair to be held and mayhem to ensue. If you have any questions you can see me or a TA after class. P.x. Choosing courses is hard! 10 // Make a note of it.

Homophobes [26 Jan 2008|11:40pm] [ music | Ennuie-,7,6 (The Cowboysong. To be is to Have but behave (The alphabet Song) ] Are fucking Retarded. I sincerely mean that, you have to be fairly fucking unintelligent to act that way. Apparently I pressed the button for bullets I'm going to go with it. How fucking crazy-stupid do you have to be to berate someone in the street for something you are completely ignorant of. If you are that stupid already why would you drink that much and exacerbate the situation. My lips are naturally that Red, Fuck you. And what if I was? Die in a Fire. 1 // Make a note of it.

Oh Ehm Gee [03 Jan 2008|03:43am] I believe I have just discovered the meanest string of words my conciousness has ever created. I will not tell you what it is for I am too ashamed, but ask me in person about ... THE SHEMOT! 2 // Make a note of it.

Who wants to drop $35 with me? [22 Nov 2007|02:17am] [ music | Brand New- Limosine ] ...In the middle of Exams... ...To see bands Guaranteed to destroy some of your hearing... ...Alexisonfire, Antiflag, Saosin and The Bled... Come on....Everyone loves my music... I have eminent taste. Why am I the punkiest person I know? And why is Kalyn the second?(Nothing but love) STEP IT UP PEOPLE! Make a note of it.

I'm lame [30 Oct 2007|11:12pm] I spent far, far too long at school today. I went in at about eight and left at 10:15....Its not right. I did get a lot of work done though. A lot of procrastination too. I'll write something more interesting later. 1 // Make a note of it.

[19 Oct 2007|01:53pm] Man that girl in my class is a bitch. Just thought I'd relate that too you. Make a note of it.

UAHA! [16 Oct 2007|05:44am] [ music | The same thing I usually listen to. Except newer. And something else-The Rambles ] Dum dee dumm, I'm Up! I'll probably go back to bed after a bit. I decided to study for my midterm today and clean a bit while I was up.....I'm not anxious. Actually, I'm really not. Okay , maybe a bit...but not nervous! I love spaces and commas, , , , , , ,  , Its nice to type on my old keyboard, I might take it with me places....YAY WIRELESS! So yeah, Packed next couple of weeks, I wish I had a calendar. Spill Canvas SO SOON! Apartment  SO SOON! Halloween SO VERY SOON! Peoples Birthdays....Of VARIANT SOONNESS! Heh. The bus runs around my house pretty consistently through the night. I've been sitting for a minute or so thinking of what I can do thats entertaining. I made my bed. Man the concept of blogs are boring sometimes. For Mike Especially:" Well, first I got up and had a piece of toast..." Oh and seeing as lately I haven't really been telling people things because I've been too busy to allow prodding time and I'm not up my own ass or anything. Heres the lowdown. Trevor is Moving In without Sandy...Supposedly. Things Are fine with Sarah and I. Oh Yeah supposedly some people don't know anything about that soooo... I'm Dating Sarah. Arctic Monkeys are Awesome. As is The Devil and God are Raging inside me. I'm kinda sick but kinda better. People are Nosey. Uni is cool, though includes slightly older and drunker versions of the things you disliked about High School. I'm (okay...Might be)"That Guy" in class. As in  I actually ask pertinent questions, Argue my standing and participate in class because I usually have a good founding of knowledge as to my beliefs....And I like to argue. Also, Not "The other Guy" Who asks stupid Questions, and or is drunk...He sits next to me though. I'm waiting on a call back from the interview I did a few days ago, I think its 50/50 Anna Damn well better be coming in a few weeks or she'll end up *James Dean Face*  "Tearing me APART!" 8 // Make a note of it.

[10 Oct 2007|12:11am] People need to learn venue etiquette. Namely the following A)Do not mosh around 5'5 100 lb girls, the elderly and infirmed or children. B)Do not crowd surf in any place with less than five people per square meter. C)Do not Crowd surf when most of those people are 5'5 100 lb girls with no upper body strength. D)Do not land on said girls or kick them in the face when you're doing what you shouldn't be doing. A rule of thumb, If you can see the ground, touch the ceiling or get hit in the head by a disco ball. Don't. 5 // Make a note of it.

[08 Oct 2007|07:11pm] When I die. No one is allowed to say the word condolences at my funeral. Not a single one of you. 1 // Make a note of it.

This... [22 Sep 2007|02:59am] [ mood | dead inside ] [ music | my tears ] Hurts. It just keeps getting worse. 6 // Make a note of it.

Time for some Honest bedside reflections. [12 Sep 2007|03:56am] [ music | Limosine(MS rebridge)- Brand New ] I want a reflecting pool. I need motivation to write. That motivation may be something as stupid as getting a nice notebook, most of mine are highly portable but not very writeable. Alex asked to read Skeleton version yellow, Which I will now refer to as Skelly, so I emailed her a copy, she likes it. She gave good criticism upon prompting, constructive and such. I just realized we have a good ten years of frivolity left if we do it right. It is quite comforting. I want to be young and slightly stupid...okay very stupid. And cheap. I intend on living very modestly and saving money for when I start my serious life. Can you say "invest in our futures!"? Wow, the 20s are fast approaching for us and our friends. Its creepy. More freedom compiled with more personal responsibility...I like it! My sister says the 20's kick the teen years asses. (Thinking he's been stupid as of late, you know why. If not, screw off.) 10 // Make a note of it.

Livejournal's true Use? Personal Drama! [26 Aug 2007|03:03am] [ music | Running For Home -Matt Good ] And as such I will use it as such. I feel like an impostor amongst my friends. All my friends are decent people, good people.These are people with some sense of morality, whether their own or imparted by some system of beliefs. I however, despite their protestations to the contrary, am ...lacking in this sense. I do not deserve to associate with these people. This started as a compliment in my head. There is this part of me that chimes in fairly frequently into my internal monologue, usually offering up the worst ideas, informing me of the absolute worst thing to do in a given situation. I listen to this voice more than I should. An example; I'm going in to hug a close friend of mine, someone that I love. I wonder how they'd react to me punching them in the face. It isn't malicious or violent in any way. It simply occurs to me that the action and outcome might be interesting. It might be the devil. I do bad things (by most standards) more than any of my friends. I am no jack the ripper but sometimes I see myself going through a course of action I know I will regret and in which I know people will be hurt. I continue regardless. All of this confuses the ever loving crap out of me because I am incredibly empathetic. I get empathy pains that actually hurt, as often as many feel normal sympathy. I think I'm masochistic. Despite my tendency toward assholery, I think I'm improving. Slowly but surely I am making more decisions I can live with. (Sidenote: Is morality internal or external? Discuss.) I'm doing what I believe is the right thing but I don't even know what right is, its so damn abstract. If it didn't hurt anyone I would do almost anything. Isn't that the crux of it though? I don't want to hurt people. But I do. I wonder if there is a breaking point or a point in socialization where you can learn to ignore empathy or so called humanity. This is all crap, sorry for making you read this. Right now...I don't know what I want. Aside from avoiding making this a sociology paper or a short story. I want some people to know hurt. I want others to know respite in affection. I want some to know both. I AM A VENN DIAGRAM OF EMOTION!   P.S. Those are both subjective and objective circles. There are a lot of circles. I might make said diagram if requested. 2 // Make a note of it.

Rain [15 Aug 2007|01:50am] It is raining like its the world's last chance right now. It started raining when I got off the bus (It just started raining harder again now) and when I was halfway through the walk to my house. It was cold but light, just large enough to be drops. The lighting came, about 18 seconds later the thunder rocked the sky and within a few seconds the floodgates of heaven opened. I stood under a tree as it swelled then abated. I continued walking. A few paces after my front landing came into view the sky suddenly shook again. The rain began to come down in torrents, the drops almost painful on my shoulders. I ran in a hysterical fashion toward my landing, Cheese it style if you will. I couldn't help but laugh, looking out into the rain. 2 // Make a note of it.

Pretty much spot on. [08 Aug 2007|05:51am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Consequence of Sounds- Regina Spektor ] Make a note of it.

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